I hate plain clothing. I don’t need any more basics, and I don’t want anything I buy to be boring. That may explain the lack of LBD in my closet, a pretty glaring omission, but I just can’t bring myself to buy something so “plain.” I want my clothes to be interesting; I want to stand out.
Paradoxically, I don’t want to stand out too much. I’m not exactly comfortable when I do. Case in point: the skirt I wore today.
- Aniseed Skirt by Eva Franco, at anthropologie
- Jacob sleeveless top (circa 2006)
- Jenna’s cardigan from J.Crew
- Wolford tights
- Hilary Druxman necklace
- Franco Sarto shoes
It begs the question: if I don’t feel comfortable in this skirt, why did I buy it? Simple answer. I love this skirt. When I saw it in the anthropologie catalogue and online, I knew I wanted to try it on. When I tried it on, I had to have it.
People definitely look at me when I wear it because I completely stand out. I see people looking at the skirt before they look at my face. I like it, but I’m uncomfortable. I feel like I shouldn’t be calling so much attention to myself and that I should be fading into the background more. And suddenly I’m back in 1991, in elementary school being teased teased mercilessly for wearing anything “different”, anything that was outside of the standard uniform of the day (whatever that was, I don’t even remember anymore). I learned to dress like everyone else in a hurry. But that was 20 years ago, this is now, I’m going to wear the skirt, and I’m going to learn to be comfortable in it. Otherwise, I might as well stop looking for these interesting, creative pieces and go back to the boring basics you can buy at Banana Republic. I don’t want to do that. I don’t want to look like everyone else anymore.
Anyway, it gets better every time I wear this skirt. By the sixth or seventh wear, I should be fine.